Bleh, I'm so tired of hearing about how much people make and how much they don't make. Life is more than about money!!

I'm tired. I should go to bed but I have to give Pax his meds. He seems better, he isn't wheazing anymore.

It's pretty funny watching Lady trying to eat Titus's bone.

I've been a week off of my meds, yay! It has been hard, but it's getting better.

I've called a couple of old friends since getting my unlimited long distance plan... memories...

My neck hurts
My arms hurt
My back hurts
My legs hurt

But I love my doggy

So we got a standard poodle (who needs a bit of work but he is a dear at 11 months), I'm rehoming my female rats and bunnies and possibly giving Lady to my mom.

I'm such a winner, aren't I? :(

I am the disposable pet queen. I should be sent to jail.

I'm soooo getting frustrated with this dog thing. I went to see an American Eskimo today and they hated each other. :(

I want a puppy but I don't' think I have the time for that.

I can't wait to be off of these meds. I already feel a big difference in myself. Sure, I'm a bit more snappy and emotional but I'm going to learn how to deal with it.

I want chocolate.

I often wonder why I am not told many things that I should know about. It's hard to go through life knowing what someone is saying about you, but they can't say it to your face. It's as if I've been in high school all of my life. Stupid drama, lies, and people hiding their feelings. Maybe that's just life though. I guess being able to compare it to something as ridiculous as high school makes me feel better.

I don't know what's going on anymore... I say that all of the time, don't I? I have found out that I need control and structure in my life, but I can't get it from those I need it from most. It's been hard going through life with no goals, no one to help me or support me through it. My family failed me and I have to get over it and get on with life.

What is the right thing for me? Should I be in a relationship? I think so... but what about others? I know I'm supposed to know for myself but I often feel as if I am blinded by my emotions.

It's funny, we were talking in class yesterday about how successful woman are often not married because they are too strong willed for men. Does a man really want a woman who is weaker in terms of business/will and strong in terms of being the happy homemaker? It really seems like it. I wonder what I'd be better off as but I never gave myself the opportunity to really be single and just be me with me.

Sometimes I just want to run away from everything.

It has been such a tough week losing Aslan and Miraz. Now Pax seems to have a myco infection. I had scheduled a neuter for him and his brother, but this may set it back. He could die from the neuter if his system isn't up to par.

Heehee, he's crawling through my housecoat right now. I really am not ready to lose more of my little ones.

We're going to go see a beautiful doggy today that we may adopt. His name is Rocky and he is a Labrador/Bernese Mountain Dog mix. He is sooooo gorgeous. He's big, about 45 lbs but I want a big doggy to exercise with outside.